Only 38 days left until my plane leaves... The whole going-to-Japan-thing has seemed real to me for quite a while now, and having finished a lot of the preparations I think I grasp the reality of my future life in Japan. But the whole leaving-my-country-and-loved-ones hasn't really dawned on me yet, but since yesterday I feel that realization has started knocking on my door, slightly. It's only natural but also scary, so I'm still trying to ignore it as much as I can. I have less than 6 weeks of living with my family left and I want to enjoy them. The coming weeks are packed with appointments, parties and things I want to do at least one more time, and I don't want to waste that time by being sad about leaving.